Everyone I know in the northern hemisphere has too much stuff. Things. Accumulation of objects. When I travel for months with one suitcase I realize how relative "need" is. I forget about most of the things I have at home and am pleasantly surprised to re-discover wealth each time I return. Even though I recognize that most of my stuff is irrelevant, there are a few objects I treasure.
I just lost one of them.
I hope, desperately, that I simply don't know where it is. That it is hiding in some nook or cranny and will resurface in the next few days or weeks and reassure me. That it will once more become a part of my habit of stitching. It is my favorite thimble. Yes, a thimble--how quaint, you say, how odd, I didn't know anyone used thimbles anymore! It suits me for handsewing. My thimble is silver, real silver, and has a key design engraved around the bottom of it. It has a tiny "9" on a plain band--I think this might be a sizing, but I always thought it was because I got it when I was 9 years old. As a present, from one of my most beloved people on earth. If you can imagine a combination of favorite aunt, inspired mentor, and patient listener you'll have a hint of the kind of person I am talking about. She's a quilter and a reader and oh so very smart, and she took me to England the summer I was 9. Just the two of us, in a small blue car visiting the Great Houses of the British Isles. It was incredible. I don't remember if the thimble was connected with our trip or not, but I recall being awed by it when I opened it and keeping it safely in my sewing box ever since. The thimble helped me sew doll clothes and then my clothes, everything from my prom dress to my first handwoven coat. I've pieced scraps with it for quilt blocks (still unfinished) and hemmed innumerable pants and skirts. Truth to tell, it is now a little small for my finger. But I don't want another. It fits me better than any other thimble could, and after 25 + years, we were getting quite comfortable together.
Perhaps you can understand why I find its absence so upsetting.
Just goes to show you what kind of troubles can be had when you insist on cleaning up too much. For years my sewing basket has looked like this:

It's a plain black plastic tin with a tight fitting lid. The lid is rarely closed, because of all the other stuff spilling out of it. Periodically I go through and clean up all the odd lengths of thread and stick all the pins back in the pincushion and discard the old scraps of fabric. You can see one of the little faces of the pincushion, and the center spilling sawdust. Earlier this summer I found a lovely round box at IKEA and decided I would remake my sewing accessories and discard the old sewing box. Especially that sagging pincushion. I made a new one from scraps of cotton.

This is a photo I took months ago, and there is my sweet darling thimble... my precious thimble... four days ago I tossed stuff out of the old sewing basket. Scraps, thread too short to use, old empty spools, broken buttons. I threw it all away and put my brand new pincushion in my new clean wooden box. It wasn't until the next day that I realized that nowhere in that fit of organization had I come across my thimble. It wasn't in the old box, it wasn't in the new box.
So far I've looked on the floor, in the drawers, in the sewing machine, in piles of fabric, in plastic folders with embroidery projects, in miscellaneous boxes on the sewing table... my studio is a haven of hiding places, I haven't convinced myself that it's not there, but it's not near the top of things and that worries me. I am so worried that this morning I went through a week's worth of trash. I actually got out my kitchen garbage bags and put on rubber gloves and went through all the rotting fruit rinds and corn cobs piece by piece to make sure it hadn't gotten thrown away by mistake. I didn't find it and I hope to God it isn't there because the trash is to be picked up tomorrow. I wondered if I might have taken it on my recent voyage, and left it somewhere, because I was doing embroidery and sewing... but I specifically remember deciding not to take it, precisely because it is too precious to lose.
Please, thimble, please come back... I miss you... I am looking forward to our next 25 years...