fed up

Next best to dyeing in terms of visible results is sewing. You can start some afternoon with a pile like this

and by the time NPR is over, you have something like this

New pair of pants! In this picture, the waistband has not yet been turned through completely and slipstitched down, which is why there's an odd white bit up there.

Now for the sad part: I tried them on. I am not sure whether to laugh, cry, or throw a tantrum. I cut two sizes larger than usual and-- they are too tight. Too tight! For months I have been struggling against weight gain, and now I have to finally face it: I am larger than I was. I am upset about this. My mother says I don't look heavy, thank you Mom, but when I have a closetful of clothes I no longer fit into, it is time to face reality. Had I known grad school would do this, I'd never have signed up! (just kidding. kind of.)

Once I calmed down a bit, I took some measurements. Tape measures don't lie. Ok, I am larger than I was. Spring is coming. Outdoor exertion is increasingly possible. All is not lost. I have not yet decided exactly how I am going to address this issue, but it must be addressed and with all due speed. My goal for the rest of the term is to not get any bigger. My goal for the summer is to get back down to where I was last year--at least. I may go vegan again for a while, I will try to up my exercise (though really, I spend 8- 10 hours a week working out, you'd think I could have prevented this!) In the meantime, I am not going to be sewing unless it's something very loose. The disappointment of a lovely new piece of clothing that doesn't fit is not an experience I want to repeat.

The pants did turn out well though, and will be fun to wear once I'm in good form.

Comments

[June]

OMG, are the pants playing an April Fool's joke on you?!?

I have put on the pounds since I started having such a sedentary job. I've upped my workout and am trying to eat more healthy (and less), but it's a struggle.

[diana]

I'm in the same boat. But spring is coming and that means more time outside, which is very, very good!

Cute pants!